Shelly Martinez Blog

Hola!  Just wanted to give you a little update on this fine Sunday morn :)  I have tons of NEW videos to share but my WiFi connection in the hotel sucks and it's taking way too long to upload to YouTube.  I will have a better signal tomorrow.  Make sure you don't miss an update and join my site FREE, just click here.  For all things wrestling join my Save Wrestling page by clicking here!

Okay now that I got my carny on time to get real.  Can I just say something?  I need to get it off my chest.  I know I keep repeating myself but the last few weeks I have learned so much about myself and others.  I realized some people who I cared so much about weren't fitting in my life anymore.  In the last few weeks 4 people who I care deeply for and have radical connections with are wrapped up in darkness.  It's a hard thing for me to sit back and watch.  The whole time I was with these people I would pray for them and ended up having some interesting convos with each individual.  Some of those connections came to an end :(  One of them I gained an insight I didn't expect and it soothe my soul.  Another was so disappointing as my heart ached and went out to this person.  There definitely was a time in my life where darkness was all around me.  I feel for these people, I've been there.  Each encounter I had with them I could relate.  In those conversation I saw each of them in a raw, real way.  They looked physically different to me after I saw them in their true form.  My heart is broken for these soul and I have been struggling with depression over this.  Not to mention I am still mourning my grandma's death. Thank God, literally, that He has given me wisdom and strength so that I am able to handle this depression in a healthy way.

That struggle is not holding me down it just makes me feel blue.  I then pray for these people, lift them up to The Lord and I find peace.  My wish is that these souls find peace in ways they never knew exist.  I certainly didn't know that living my life as I currently do would grant me so much peace that when people hurt me I no long have anger.  I have compassion which leads to forgiveness.  Each time I forget I gain more of my energy back and find peace.  I'm so grateful for the blessings in my life even those blessing I have yet to understand.  Life is a trip but as long as you tuck your chin and kick out you can make your baby face come back.  ONE Love, Shalom.