#Day213 and boy was it an uncomfortable night.  We only had one window in our apartment so the air circulation it pretty non existent here.  We had the fans blasting all night long yet it must have been about 80 degrees.  It's all good though, I woke up a little earlier than usual and totally have benefited from it.  Me and The Mertzes took Danielle to her bus stop then went to the Hollywood Hills for some early cardio.  We went yesterday at 9AM and it was too hot. 

After a great workout I came home and submitted myself for some castings.  One was for today and  since I was up earlier enough, I landed the gig.  I don't have to stress about time :)  Workout's done and now I have a few hours to prepare myself.  YAY!  Stay tuned for some iPhone Diaries, hopefully this time I wont get lost....

#Day212 up bright and early taking care of business.  It's always a good morning when Ethel is being so sweet.  Yesterday I saw a side of Ethel I haven't seen in long time.  She was so playful!  She hasn't been that playful since losing her sight and seeing her back to her old self gave me hope.  I am going to investigate the cost of having Ethel seen by a doggie eye specialist in case she is a candidate for a doggie eye surgery.  The vet told us that she may be, crossing fingers!  I will definitely keep all of you posted but until then I'm off to do some Hollywood Hills cardio with The Mertzes then get ready for today's shoot!  Positive vibes, I hope everyone has a blessed day.

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A few days after writing this post I woke up feeling so sick.  I couldn't shake it until I discovered that I had been suppressing a lot of feelings lately.  I've been through so much in the last few months I didn't allow myself to feel it out.  I knew I didn't want to allow it to distract me but I forgot to actually deal with each issue with love, understanding and peace.  I still am working through my heartbreaks but I feel stronger than ever before.  My biggest heartbreak was my grandma passing away.  I think of her every single day.  Each time I think of her I learn something about myself, other and/or life.  Her precious love still continues to inspire.  Here is my original post:

Someone once told me "all you do is smoke pot all day" but what they probably do not realize is cannabis is my medication.  I am dealing with the death of my grandma along with the spiritual warfare that has been surrounding me for months.  Long story short, I should be on medication for depression and anxiety but  Zoloft and Xanax did not give me a better quality of life.  In fact, I felt I was in a zombie state of mind.  I only told my best friend/roommate the concerns I had with the side effects they gave me and that's when RVD came into my life.  I had just started being on the road full time and I kept bumping into him at various stops.  He would tell me the benefits of cannabis without knowing my views on it and that I was struggling mentally.  I looked up all the information he gave me and it checked out.  That's when I decided to medicate for the first time.  Since then I have been able to live a better quality of life.  I'm not saying I NEED cannabis.  I'm just saying that instead of popping prescription medication I use herbal medication.  Some days I smoke a lot and others not so much.  In fact, there have been times I had no cannabis in my system (at all) and I had a wonderful day. 

It really hurt me when I was judged by this person and then I started to compare my life to theirs.  I went from a gal with hurt pink feelings to feeling empowered.  This person doesn't have the motivation I have that allows me to accomplish my goals and dreams.  They doesn't focus on a healthy mental, fitness and spiritual lifestyle.  I used to be that person so I can relate and say with confidence I know where they are coming from.  I'm grateful for those experiences they are amazing reminders I had once been there but now I am no longer angry.  My anger turned into compassion for this person.  I felt for them, I prayed for them.  Anger is an ugly thing and I used to have SUCH a problem with it.  Back in the day I was the chick who would punch a hole in the wall out of frustration.  I was the one who was ready to physically get into a fight if I had to and sometimes I wanted to fight.  That's right Miss Positive Vibes used to be not positive vibes at all.  I had so much hurt in my life I didn't think I could ever obtain peace.  I was a good girl who was hurt and didn't know where to go for the answers and peace that I so desperately needed.  When cannabis entered my life I was able to connect with high school Shelly.  The girl who would wear cute little outfits to school with a bible in her purse.  A girl that people would say "what is it about you" and I would reply "It's the Love of The Lord."  What a blessing my life experiences both negative and positive are.  They have helped me become a wiser version of the person I was and wanted to be.  I feel free and full of life and I just had to share this story with you.  Positive vibes to everyone out there, I mean it.  This world is filled with darkness and I hope that this post had brought a little Light to at least one person today.  Shalom amigos y amigas!

Hola!  Just wanted to give you a little update on this fine Sunday morn :)  I have tons of NEW videos to share but my WiFi connection in the hotel sucks and it's taking way too long to upload to YouTube.  I will have a better signal tomorrow.  Make sure you don't miss an update and join my site FREE, just click here.  For all things wrestling join my Save Wrestling page by clicking here!

Okay now that I got my carny on time to get real.  Can I just say something?  I need to get it off my chest.  I know I keep repeating myself but the last few weeks I have learned so much about myself and others.  I realized some people who I cared so much about weren't fitting in my life anymore.  In the last few weeks 4 people who I care deeply for and have radical connections with are wrapped up in darkness.  It's a hard thing for me to sit back and watch.  The whole time I was with these people I would pray for them and ended up having some interesting convos with each individual.  Some of those connections came to an end :(  One of them I gained an insight I didn't expect and it soothe my soul.  Another was so disappointing as my heart ached and went out to this person.  There definitely was a time in my life where darkness was all around me.  I feel for these people, I've been there.  Each encounter I had with them I could relate.  In those conversation I saw each of them in a raw, real way.  They looked physically different to me after I saw them in their true form.  My heart is broken for these soul and I have been struggling with depression over this.  Not to mention I am still mourning my grandma's death. Thank God, literally, that He has given me wisdom and strength so that I am able to handle this depression in a healthy way.

That struggle is not holding me down it just makes me feel blue.  I then pray for these people, lift them up to The Lord and I find peace.  My wish is that these souls find peace in ways they never knew exist.  I certainly didn't know that living my life as I currently do would grant me so much peace that when people hurt me I no long have anger.  I have compassion which leads to forgiveness.  Each time I forget I gain more of my energy back and find peace.  I'm so grateful for the blessings in my life even those blessing I have yet to understand.  Life is a trip but as long as you tuck your chin and kick out you can make your baby face come back.  ONE Love, Shalom.


Before I post videos on YouTube I watch it to make sure there are no errors.  After watching then uploading this video I posted the following on my private FB page and I think its speaks for it's for this particular blog:

Since I was a little girl I always saw life in picture or movie form. I remember playing in the yard and I would close my eyes, turn my head then open my eyes while singing songs in my head that went along with my vibe. It trips me out when I edit videos and it comes so naturally. That's when I reflect on those moments and I know it's something that I was meant to do. When I shoot my footage I am editing it together as I am filming. I just edited my first day in Costa Rica and it literally made me cry. The Dirty Heads song playing while we drive kept coming on my shuffle and I knew I had to use that song. It's so perfect. At first I wanted to be a YouTuber to make a couple extra bucks to help better my situation. After doing it for a few months I looked at it as a way to spread as much of Gods Love as I could and to as many people as possible. This world hurts us and we all need some Love. Now I look at it as therapy as I reflect on moments in my life that help mold who I am. I see myself grow and become a woman I never knew existed within my soul. I feel so much compassion in my heart I can't help but what to spread the joy I have rediscovered. I cannot wait to edit more footage from Costa Rica. I left a piece of my soul there and I intend to go back and nurture what I found in that rain forest. This time I will have Danielle by my side and we will have a true adventure. Shalom.

I haven't updated my #daily videos for quite some time so I thought why not do a full blog on the ones I missed :)  I pulled an all nighter before leaving to The Gathering in which I spent my time preparing my soul for the long weekend.  Plus when I pull all nighters before a flight it guarantees a sound sleep on the plane.  Nothing is worse than not being able to sleep on a flight.  It makes the time go by faster when I take a snooze.

My flight landed around 4PM and Amber O'neal picked me up from the airport along side Amanda Rodriguez.  We got to the hotel within minutes to take a little nap then head to Cave in Rock, IL for The Gathering.  I was booked to co-host Rude Boys kick off party which means I had a killer dress for the event.  I had so much fun I forgot to get a picture of me in said dress :(  Hopefully there are some floating around out there.   I had a blast co-hosting, it's like my thing!  We danced the night away until 4AM then headed back to our hotel.  I caught some z's but made sure to wake up a little early to get some cardio in.  I took a years to be in the shape I am currently in and I want to keep it that way.  I didn't want to get off track so who cares if I only got a few hours of sleep.  I knew that sleep would find me when it was the right time and on day 2 it was time to do cardio!  The cherry on top The Notebook was on while doing cardio.  I'm a girl, I'm a hopeless romantic, I cried.  As I always say, my day can official start when I get a good cry out :)

So on our way to The Gathering we had car problems.  We almost didn't make it!  Of course we did and thank God we got there safely.  I will talk about this experience in full on this week's edition of Save Wrestling the podcast.  In short, we made it and I had a killer match with Miss Natural.  We ended up sleeping in Amber's car until the next day so we could get a new tire at Walmart.  Stay tuned for more videos and of course Save Wrestling the podcast.

See, every time I wake up super early I get so much done!  I have already conquered half of what I needed to do today and its barely 10:30 AM.  That's what I'm talking about.  I have a crazy couple of weeks ahead of me and today is the day of getting caught up on everything so I don't fall behind.  Stay tuned to see my crazy Goonie adventures ;)

                                                     

 

Hmmmm....if I want my wifi to work in my backyard does that mean I need a fancier router?  If you know, please leave your answer in the comment box below :)

I think today I will do Strength Builder and Red Hot Core.  I haven't been consistant the last few weeks and I totally feel the difference.  I am trying to make it a priorty to do at least Wake Up everyday. #AintYourMamasYoga #OwnIt #BAM BROTHER!

                                  

 

Nothing beat eating some fresh fruit in the AM!  I totally see and feel a difference when I have more fruit in my life.  In the morning my tummy is sensative and I don't feel hungry but once I force myself to snack on fruit I feel hydrated and ready to conquer the day.

Well, when I went home I realized the paper I was missing not only did I have but I mailed it to the courthouse months ago!  So I text The Mayo and told him I would mail, once again but this time take in back myself.  Oh those little bumps in the road sometimes they are so cute but mostly very annoying.  Needless to say I mailed it off and hope to be un-Mayoed ASAP!

I stand by my theory, my day can official start after I get a good cry.  I'm a girl! So sue me for having deep pink feelings that need to release every now and then with a good cry.  It's close to 6:30 PM and I can vouch that I had such an inspiration day after I made this video.  So much became clear to me, I owned my energy when I needed to and it feel good to be back.  Since my grandma passed I feel I have been allowing myself to be distracted with things/people which takes away from what I am put here to do.  In short, to send positive vibes to the masses in different forms.  I wonder what tomorrow will be like....

Holy wresting weekend!  I feel like the last few weeks have blasted on by.  With a blind of an eye I went to Jersey to Oakland and back.  Perhaps that's why I'm so tired.  I feel good now though!  I have my coffee in hand and am ready to edit away.  I have some amazing footage and I look forward to sharing it with all of you fine people :)  Next stop is The Gathering of the Juggalos then I'm off to Costa Rica!  You better bet your boots I will get some unforgettable footage but until then make sure to stay tuned to shellymartinez.org and/or youtube.com/luchagal909 to see my latest adventures. ONE Love!