Hey everyone!!
My has it been a long time since I have blogged. Its been such a crazy time in my life. I am trying to make new dreams/goals come true and survive in life at the same time. Spiritually I have grown so much even from just a week ago!! Financially, now that's a different story. I never really had direction or anyone there to guide me through life especially when it came to finances. I grew up in a household where water and heat got turn off often and bills always piling up. When I was in the WWE and was finally making some real money I didn't invest that money into my future. If I could do it all over again I would have taken online courses to be a personal trainer so that I would always have a back up plan if something didn't go the right way. My time in WWE was the ONLY time in my life where I made REAL money. So now I am saving up to do so!! High five!! AND I learned so much. What I want and don't want. I know that I was never taught about finances not because my parents were trying to keep it from me. They were just trying to make it period. My mom was just trying to change her situation and do the best she could. Knowledge is power and now I am aware. It's interesting that once you connect 100% with your soul and see that it needs some cleaning- life can get a bit tough. I used to pick up the slack when I needed to pay rent etc by taking modeling/acting bookings that required me to be topless. After going through that experience I feel that is not where God wants me. He did use me during that time in my life but that time is over. I view nudity as a beautiful thing but not everyone does. I have found that most view nudity as 100% sexual and for their own view pleasure, if you know what I mean. I have met so many wonderful gals who went through that dark time with me, tried to exit with me but always fell back to it because its easy. Easy money but with a price. I guess that is why some of them end up back on drugs etc :( I tried the easy way and it did not mesh well with my soul. Its been a tough week but I am staying positive with God's light by my side. I hope all of you are having a positive day/night and I look forward to sharing more of my journey with all of you.
Shelly
shellymartinez.org
Very nice blog. I guess the true problem with the nudity thing is you are facilitating people to lust after you. Men see a naked woman and that's what they do. A woman can be beautiful and good looking with her clothes on but naked it's always going to be viewed as sexual unless the pictures are private for you alone. Keep being positive. God bless.
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